How do I get over the bumps and land again upright

It really seems difficult just to do the next right thing. It is time to move on, but the old habbits has grown strong and is dominating my mind and descision making.
When the pain kicks in – all the fine descisions vanishes and I see myself act against what I know is good for me. I am caught up in a chemical prison.
I just want to do the next right thing. “God give me the strength to find the ninpo way again”